Monday, September 7, 2015

Will I Ever Fall In Love?

A question that I've been asking myself recently is will I ever fall in love? And I don't mean obsessing over celebrities who I vow I will marry someday, I mean like a boy who knows I exist and who doesn't only exist in my mind.

I've been on this earth for 18 years now and not many people know that I've never had a boyfriend and I've only ever been kissed once (which doesn't really even count as it was just a silly game of truth or dare when I was 12 and it was more like a peck on the lips). Writing that down is actually quite embarrassing for me. It's hard not to ask yourself 'Is there something wrong with me?'.

I know I'm probably not alone is this problem. I wouldn't make such a big deal out of it but my biggest worry is that when it does happen with someone I care about, will I be terrible at it because I've had virtually no experience?

All the movies and books make finding someone who loves you look so easy. But it never is. I honestly believe it's because of these expectations that society thinks we have to find the one, fall in love and live happily ever after. These expectations are forced on us and now when we find ourselves without love in our lives we believe there's something wrong with us. It's crazy pressure from such a young age.

Maybe the best way to find someone is to stop looking (as Rachel Green told us in Friends). Growing up is proving to be a real pain. Any advice for a confused girl? Leave a comment below.


  1. This was pretty interesting to read because I'm also 18 but I have actually been with my current boyfriend since I was 15. So yeah, we kind of cover both ends of the spectrum of teenage dating hahaha! I often have days where I wonder how different my life would be had I not found my first relationship at 15. Wanna switch lives like Freaky Friday for a week to see how different it is?! ;)

    1. That is interesting :) it would be so amazing just to see the difference. Shall we go get fortune cookies in a Chinese restaurant and see what happens? ;) x